I entered Gloucester House for treatment in February, the day after my 45th birthday. I remember saying to myself what a brilliant birthday gift this is. I was defeated by my struggle with alcoholism, but full of hope I was about to receive the help and support I desperately needed.
My active addiction cost me my home, my career and family. I lost everything that I held dear, I was powerless over drinking and those I loved were powerless to help me.
Today I count myself to be so lucky to have had this opportunity, because I know so many people won’t get the same chance because of cut backs in funding.
Turning point in Gloucester was amazing, and worked closely with Gloucester House to secure me a place quickly. They have continued to support me, and even extended my funding to give Gloucester House time to find me a suitable home of my own.
I look back now and see how physically, spiritually and mentally sick I was. The 12 Step programme has truly restored me back to sanity.
Gloucester House is the most amazing, wonderful place and I truly owe them my life. I know without them I would not be here today.
Thank you Gloucester House, today I have hope, and I have my life to live now. Thanks to all of you.
Gloucester House is the most amazing, wonderful place and I truly owe them my life.
In Gloucester House I had amazing, caring people all around me, and I have learnt to experience real joy again.
At the start of my treatment, I was an eroded shell of a human being. I had struggled with the fear of haunting alcoholism for sixteen years, and I am only 35 years old.
I was homeless and all of my privileged upbringing and good education felt like it counted for nothing.
I was morally and financially bankrupt, a man living in a delusional existence, and I had become somebody I loved to ignore.
I had desperately wanted to get into rehab for some time, but had never found the belief in myself to be able to address my problems, until one day I had just reached the point of desperation. I had no money, no one to turn to, I was homeless and my family support network had all but evaporated.
I was living in Brighton at the time, when on this one day I found myself walking into a homeless charity called Antifreeze to ask for help. There I met a man called Tom who was a support worker who connected with me straight away, and made me feel heard and visible for the first time in a long time.
Tom searched for places where I could get the help I so desperately needed to address my alcohol problem, Brighton has no funding whatsoever for residential treatment. Eventually, and after numerous calls to places, he contacted Ros at Gloucester House and she offered me the opportunity of an assessment. Within two weeks I had visited the centre, been assessed by her, and was offered a place to turn my life around, and I couldn’t believe it.
I have never in my life believed there was a grand creator, or a God, but if I did that was the moment my cynical nature said it would be so good to be true. All I know today after being sober for over a year now, is that I am so truly grateful for Gloucester House and the Buy a Bed Fund, because it has literally saved my life and given me the chance to have a new future.
In Gloucester House I had amazing, caring people all around me, and I have learnt to experience real joy again. Since being there I have met some new amazing friends in recovery, all that had received funding from the BAB scheme; and the sad thing is there are many more people out there in the same situation that as I was in.
So thank you so much to all those people that have made this possible
For years I struggled with my addiction and alcoholism fooling myself that because I was capable of contributing to society, it must mean that I’m ok! I had a loving family, a good education, a beautiful home and always managed to somehow get the best job and then systematically tear down everything that I had built.
I was controlled by the use of drugs and alcohol. Harming everyone I came in to contact with, blaming everyone else but myself for my own actions. I had tried everything I could think of and everything recommended to me by local agencies and doctors including, keeping a diary of my using, trying to cut down, trying to take breaks, saving some for ‘later’, acupuncture, massage, group therapy, counselling, holidays, locking myself up, getting married and having children, and the list goes on and on. These were all strategies, defences put in place by myself and others to try and prevent me from picking up the first drink or drug. None of them ever worked and it took me almost 18 years to reach a point where I could finally admit to myself that I was completely powerless over my decision to pick up the first drink or drug, you see I really didn’t want to use or drink anymore.
I cried myself to sleep, cried whilst using because I felt like I was being forced to use from within, I was completely incapable of carrying through with my decision to stay clean and sober. In the end I couldn’t look at myself in the mirror, my parents told me I was no longer their son, I had no job, nowhere to live and I just reached the point where I just wanted to die.
However one day after trying hard to find a place that could help me with my problem, I contacted Gloucester House who invited me to the centre for an assessment which lasted about an hour. I remember the day I then received the call to say I had been accepted into treatment, and I was going to be funded by the “Buy a Bed Save a Life Scheme”. This was a life saver for me because I knew it would equip me with a whole new way of living, a programme that would help me be free from addiction and alcoholism.
From the day I arrived at Gloucester House on the 10th November in 2014, I have not put another mind altering substance in my body, and “Just for Today” I don’t intend to.
My life is now amazing. I have a full time job that I love, I have a place to live and good health relationships with those I love, and I have an abundance of friends in the fellowship. Going into Gloucester House was the best decision I have ever made in my life and I will always remain forever grateful.
Going into Gloucester House was the best decision I have ever made in my life and I will always remain forever grateful.